Oct 11, 2011

Bullying, Prayers, Loving, and Lonliness

Main Idea: Post how I can pray for you in the comments.

While writing an essay for a school assignment about 5 seconds ago, I was reminded of something I had completely forgotton about: Horse Camp, through my Girl Scout Camp...the summer after 3rd grade.

Okay, so work with me here and try to picture me in 3rd grade:

 I had a hideously short haircut (I have red hair), perfectly round brown glasses, and I wore matching leggings and long-sleeve shirts to school everyday. Me in jeans? Yeah, right!

The minute I walked in the door I spotted a girl who I immediately wanted to be friends with. She was tall, skinny, blond, etc. but the minute the adults walked out of the room, it was like one of those midnight cat fights you might hear in the alley. It was bad. I was the main target, so that made the other girls not want to be friends with me. Nights were the worst because we didn't have a counselor stay with us in the cabins.

It's really interesting when you think about it: girls learn these behaviors from others. Someone teaches them to be awful. I suppose we do all have that deep down thing that originated from Adam, Eve, and the apple, but still.

Lately I've been deeply thinking about humans, and how our deepest desire is to be loved. The deepest desire of everyone I know is to be loved and accepted for who they are. That's my deepest desire.

It's also interesting to think about how we, especially us girls, get so desperate for this love, that we settle for only 'attention' from other people, the wrong kinds of people. And we forget those that love us most: our true, honest-to-God friends (I mean that seriously: my friends are honest to God.), our parents, and our heavenly father. I know I forget about Him. It's easy to trust him in the good times, when everything is going our way. But it's hard when you feel so alone that you spend all day in the nurse's office crying, skipping two college credit courses in the process. Jesus loved me first, deepest, hardest, and he'll love me the longest.

Sometimes, you just need to be reminded.

I am so blessed to have Mo and Petey as my two very best Honest-to-God friends. They are beautiful people, in every possible way.

So: What are you guys struggling with? I know this blog doesn't have a huge following, but we can pray for each other! Send me a message or comment below. Jesus loves you; it's not just a kid's song.

Oh, and P.S. Shout out to Logan over at http://lovwritingblog.blogspot.com/ . He's had some great thought-provoking posts lately that I've genuinely enjoyed and been blessed by. Thanks Logan!